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[13 Dec 2003|12:01am] |
[[x]]pick a band and answer only using that band's song lyrics; taking back sunday
[[x]]are you male or female? Ghost Man On Third
[[x]]describe yourself: You're So Last Summer
[[x]]how do some people feel about you? The Things We'll Never Know
[[x]]how do you feel about yourself? Cute Without The "E" (Cut From The Team)
[[x]]describe your girlfriend/boyfriend/interest:greatest romances of the 20th century
[[x]]where would you rather be? Timberwolves At New Jersey
[[x]]describe what you want to be: Lost And Found
[[x]]describe how you live: Your Own Disaster
[[x]]describe how you love: You Know How I Do
[[x]]share a few words of wisdom: Go On
well today was music club-- i was really disappointed cause fran messed up and i took it out on my self just like cursing myself out and all.. people tell me we were good just the drummer sucked... i dunno what to believe-- pics will be posted tommorrow thanks to lyss :)!
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[05 Dec 2003|07:52pm] |
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this is the end. . .
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[05 Dec 2003|05:36pm] |
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anathema better off dead- i really think i am |
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i hate my self- i hate everything about me- im not important to anyone i serve no purpose in this life what so ever-- im just a waste of life someone just kill me and spare me going through this
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| taken from lyss |
[03 Dec 2003|06:29pm] |
Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
Am I lovable?:
How long have you known me?:
How did we meet?:
What was your first impression?:
o you still think that way about me now?:
What do you think my weakness is?:
Do you think I'll get married?:
What makes me happy?:
What makes me sad?:
What reminds you of me?:
If you could give me anything what would it be?:
How well do you know me?:
When's the last time you saw me?:
Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?:
Do you think I could kill someone?:
Describe me in one word:
Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?:
Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?:
What about me, or what do I do that will always make you laugh?:
Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?:
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| pizza man-- i didnt order any pizza-- well somebodies gotta eat it |
[03 Dec 2003|06:28pm] |
She got the friends but she needs a location,
He's got a local but he needs the supplies
Her friends have supply so they all get together
Now everybody's welcome to the party tonight
It' time to redefine the new school rude boy two tone suits,
Hang'em by the door
Super orgy porno party,
Super orgy porno party
I've never personnally benn to the big party
But I supposethat if I did I'd have a good time
Lots a folks I see do it regularly
And they tell me that it feels just fine
It' time to redefine the new school rude boy two tone suits
Scattered on the floor
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| ok this is the time whem im gonna get really personal |
[01 Dec 2003|10:44pm] |
wow-- life has been shit latly i hate my fucking life.. lyss is the only person making it bearable for me- i love her so much.her personality and willingness to listen and talk to me has just made such on impact on my life--i seriously would die for her. she means the world to me. she is the only person i trust- and the only person i really care enough about to keep a promise to. she is my life.i can be in the worst mood- but i see her and its like a new breath is breathed into me.
im gonna go meditate now
comment if ud like
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[27 Nov 2003|09:20am] |
last nite was the greatest.. it was me and lyss on the phone for almost 3 hours.. talked alot about important things just like the old times :) i was watching final destination last night while talking to her-- im gonna be so wrroried when she goes to london.. but she said shell call as soon as shes there so yay! i have only 3 ppl on my xmas list this year i know what to get one.. the other two i cant figure out.o well ive gota like 23 days or so to figure it out.
i love lyss:)
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[24 Nov 2003|09:07pm] |
me and lyss had a nice talk tonight.. im in tears from it. lyss means the world to me i really love her to death- i made a sacred promise to her and i plan to keep it
I love lyss!
Won't you hold me now?
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[23 Nov 2003|10:36pm] |
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i love marisa-- and she loves me ! :)
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[23 Nov 2003|05:11pm] |
rilo kiley sucks so bad! and marisa agrees with me- so therefore marisa is awesome :)
marisa likes modest mouse-- that makes her the coolest person ever
if u want to meet boys night out with me im me ( fadedintoblivion) or comment
yea if u want to come see fata with me for my bday leave a comment the shows december 12th..
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| yesterday review |
[23 Nov 2003|02:40pm] |
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went to laurs at like 230-- we started to watch finding nemo got bored went to wendys and then the hill! we hung out ou t a nice convo waited for tom to come hung out went to 7-11 got slurpees went back to laurs watched nemo again-- played tennis took pics.. the highlight of my day was talking to laur waiting for my dad..it really helped me..
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| god im such a fuck up |
[20 Nov 2003|07:44pm] |
... dont really like how ive been acting latly.... cant get over her. just want to be best friends with her.. what the fuck is wrong with me? why am i so pathetic?
really been depressed lately.. not cause of her... other reasons... just keep making my self sick every nite-- constant blur dont know where i am... just totally numb-- heavier breathing... waking up not realizing whats going on... really scared
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| song lyrics i like alot |
[19 Nov 2003|07:08pm] |
the first time i saw a body bend that way i realized that we're more beautiful dead than alive. then, with bloodied flesh removed, your rib cage ripped away - and i saw why they say beauty comes from the inside. it won't be the same this time around and you'll never be the same again. i promise to never forget you. i know you'll remember me for as long as you live...and your life ends right here, right now, as i tear your heart apart. i'll keep your hair with me, wrapped around my bloody knuckles as a soft, silken reminder of the day you discovered that even the softest words can't heal the deepest wounds. i pray that they find you and use the softest words to hide the hardest truth. i'm covered in your blood...now it's over. we're better. one day we'll forget you were so right and so clever. save me from this love affair with broken hearts before it's too late. save me or save yourself.
- boys night out torrid love affair
And hope's just another rope to hang myself with
To tie me down till something real comes around
And if I started crying would you start crying?
And if I started crying why are you not crying?
-rites of spring theme
and please take this piece of my heart and never let it go..things may not work out quite right but i wont lose hope
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| bored again |
[16 Nov 2003|03:24pm] |
01. Am I cute?
02. Am I crazy?
03. Am I lovable?
04. Am I funny?
05. Am I annoying?
06. Am I psycho?
07. Am I daring?
08. Am I a good person?
-- would you...
01. Hug Me?
02. Miss me if I was gone?
03. Listen to my problems?
04. Hug me if I cried?
05. Be a good friend?
-- skip if they don't apply
01. Would you ever go out with me?
02. If you already have, would you do it again?
03. Would you kiss me?
04. Would you marry me if you could?
05. Would you ever talk bad about me if we ever broke up?
-- random:
01. How Well Do You Know Me?
02. When's my birthday?
03. How old am I?
04. Do I have any siblings; names?
05. Who is my best friend?
06. Who am I crushing on/dating?
07. Favorite color?
08. Lucky number?
09. Favorite animal?
10. Favorite sport?
11. Favorite TV show?
12. Favorite song/songs?
13. Favorite music groups?
14. What TV/anime/game star do I most remind you of?
15. What song would you dedicate to me?
16. What famous person do I most resemble?
-- if you could...
1. Give me a new name, it would be?
2. Do one thing with me, it would be?
3. Drop me a piece of advice, it would be?
-- lastly:
01. What do you love about me?
02. What do you hate about me?
03. What is my best quality?
04. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
05. What is your honest opinion about me?
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what is your first memory of me:
describe me in four adjectives:
if we could spend a night together what would we do:
name one thing you really don't like about me:
name one thing you really do like about me:
if you could promise me anything, what would it be:
have we ever gotten in a fight & about what:
have we ever hugged:
have we ever kissed:
have we ever danced with each other:
have you ever seen me cry:
have you seen me undressed:
have i ever offended you:
what is something embarassing that i've done:
what do i usually look like when you see me:
what do i say all the time\whats my catch phrase:
do you think we will be friends in 5 years:
do you think i am bitchy:
has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't:
what advice would you give me, in general:
wanna make out:
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[15 Nov 2003|07:37am] |
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yesterday sucked-- minus czar getting drunk.. haha that was go great someone came on the pa system in prep hes like god? he was asking henry and haggerty to hook up anyways.. last nite just sucked so badly 95% of my best friends went to the sugarcult show.. i was was stuck here by myself-- hopefully they had a good time
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| not good enough |
[14 Nov 2003|10:43pm] |
it took me a while to figure this out- but im not good enough for anyone. im not goodenough for my family. my friends especially lyss.. im really not deserving of anyones attention im not good enough for anyones friendship, i fucked up my life by choosing some things that i knew at the time werent right- now i just want to go die... i hate the fact i cant be a better friend to lyss and stop falling for her cause itll never happen-- i hate the fact that i said those things about jenn she was one of my best friends and i fucked it up.i hate the fact i lied to every1 about smoking i hate the fact that im so dependent. i hate me in general. no good qualites just a waste of breath and space.. i wish i could just go back to the first time i told lyss i loved her- and change everything i fucked up after that. i wish i can take back every bad thing ive done to lyss.. i wish i didnt make her feel bad everytime i fall for her-i wish things could just go back to the way it was..
latly instead of cutting ive been putting hot metal to my skin my to try to burn away regrets and mistakes..
lyss and jenn- i love you guys so much.. you both mean the world to me.. thanks for sticking with me
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[10 Nov 2003|10:32pm] |
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attn jen derkcas you are requested to sing for me if you want.. probbly like the starting line or taking back sunday
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